Cambridge FML

I screwed my chemistry practical exam today. Down ~~~
At first I thought it should be okay for me. I just treat it as normal practical.
But, again, my ASSUMPTION is WRONG!
I had not enough time to complete it. I aimed to get an A for my Chem.
I don't know how to express my feeling. I didn't put much effort in the exam.
Sometimes I feel like want to be hardworking, but it just can't be that.


It is the first time I got the feeling of guilty since I started my school-year long long time ago.
Since I started my A-level, I always felt down, sad, and disappointed.
I don't know why.
Really. Sometimes I feel like I'm  not studying for me myself, is just to achieved what my Mums want me to do.
Just to make her happy.


However, mummy I'm sorry. I had to make you disappointed for the first time. Sorry.
I'm here to promise you, I will try my best best best in my A2.

INSOMNIA

两天了，都睡不着。 很烦。烦他做工的东西，也烦自己的东西。
就是觉得很压力。明明很累却睡不着。
是我要求太高，还是。。。。？
我知道你对我很好，很疼我，可是有时我还是会埋怨。
最近开始觉得我们没像一开始时那么甜蜜了。有些东西，久了，就变了！
一开始，你去哪里做工，睡前，睡醒时，到家，在做什么等等，你都会跟我说。现在呢？
我开始觉得，住在一起，并没想像中那么好。
相处久了，任何事情，都变成一种习惯了。甜蜜不再！平平淡淡。
是祸，抑或是福？！！
感觉失去方向了。。。

我想要的，很简单，就是----回到最初~~~~
当初的甜蜜，当初的快乐，当初的温柔。。。
我不想再争吵了。我很累很累了。